Incredibly Real and Raw
Posted by twisteddomesticgoddess
My writing has been less than stellar lately. I’m very aware of it. I’m so aware of it that it keeps me up at night and wakes me up early in the morning. I used to be so very full of so many ideas to write down on my paper or computer. These days though most the thoughts that enter my head I wonder if anyone would even really want to read.
I’ve had so many people tell me I should write down my story of being a single mom. To do that I would have to be completely honest with everyone, include not only my good times, but my epically bad ones as well. To do this I would have to be completely raw with myself. Completely raw is not a place I want to go. Although it’s where I live inside my head most the times these days. Trust me it is not a pretty place to be.
Maybe it is just time that I become real and raw. I have never cared what people think of me before so why should I care now?
I feel like I’m barely keeping my head above the water on most days.
There are days where I have to remind myself to breathe.
The move up here was definitely a good one I just wonder though how long until we get settled into a place we can call home. How much longer do I have to keep relying on friends.
I’ve always been the one to offer the help not take it.
I’ve been listening to Incubus a lot lately.Normally it clears my head, and helps me get my thoughts straight. Lately, it just brings back memories of those harsh raw times in my life.
Maybe it’s time to find a new soundtrack to my life.
Maybe it’s time to just say screw it and pick up that pen.
Maybe it’s just time to become incredibly real and raw.